A Getaway

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Yea, great!! I've been spending hours in front of my laptop writing almost nothing for my dearest Strategic Management exam. How can I have so many things in mind to talk about and at the same time feel that I know nothing about what I'm talking about? --> this doesn't even make sense. I'm losing words.

That was quick!!!

So that's it! Phewww... Yesterday I had my last class for this semester. That was quick!!! Bloody too fast... I don't even realized that it's been 3 months. I don't think I'm able to endure another month, though. Another week would be great so that I don't have to do the Strategic Management (SM) exam that soon!! The SWOT Vac has started... And I do prefer studying Derivatives than SM. Yea rite, who likes SM anyway... Quantitative Analysis will still have another week. I haven't thought about it, yet. Then what should I do with these SM stuffs?!?!?! Why they don't give a take-home exam anymore?!?!?! Why they make SM a core subject in the first place, actually?!?!?! GGRrr...

a "temporary" review

It's been a lovely week in autumn. Few sunny days have certainly changed the mood for the week. Yea, it has been longgg..cloudy days since I don't remember when. May be those are "nothing special" days that I wasn't able to keep from flying. Or may be it was me that's just too busy to notice what's happening out there. Well, may be this one is fair enough... the whole school and work things (meaning those late nights and early days in cold) have made me running in my own time and consider those days as ordinary days that I don't really wanna (or am able to) remember. So many things have happened since school started. While I'm tempted to count the figures in terms of how many assignments I've submitted and how many assignments to go, how many cups of coffee I have in a day and how strong it's become, how many weeks (I should have started using "days" instead of "weeks" here) left 'till the final exam, etc. the world outside is running on, at least, another "time zone".

My bros got promoted. I've heard my friends (I meant A LOT of them!!!) are getting married soon. And those who have been married are having a baby.  Some already delivered their babies. Some of my friends already got a job -am so happy for them. My k was having his birthday this week. We also celebrated the 25th and the 1st birthday of our friends in church yesterday and today. I heard that my ex-boss' mom had passed away a few days ago. And today, my bestfriend sent me an sms telling that her relative had passed away too and that's why she couldn't go to her friend's wed. In the meantime...I still have 2 more assignments to go and exam in less than 3 weeks. And I start to worry about getting a well-paying job that challenges me to develop myself more. And we start to make friends, three of us in the foodcourt, me and the other two girls from Holland and China. Never thought that working in a foodcourt could be this fun cross-cultural time!!

But you know what? When you pause yourself from running for a while...you must sense that autumn is not that dull and bleak as you thought. When summer was about to over, I was thinking why we should have winter. "I don't wanna have winter, I wanna be in summer forever, or at least until I'm sick and tired of it," I said to myself. Wouldn't it be lovely if we have summer a whole year long? Bright and sunny days, cheerful people in colourful clothes, late sunsets, people staying out late, etc. etc. But then I thought again... if we only had summer, it wouldn't be special anymore -summer is everywhere. Everything has to be in balance for us to treasure each bit of it. You won't have summer unless you have winter. Autumn and spring have their own stories. I was walking towards uni yesterday afternoon when I realised that I was smiling in relief. I was smiling simply because I saw how beautiful it was when the yellowish leaves fell down from the branches, blown by the wind. It was really amazing. Words and pictures won't be able to capture it and re-tell the story. You have to be there and sneak yourself out of your own time shell to appreciate it. And again, autumn is not for you to keep forever. Those things must boil down to one fact...Everything is not meant to be forever, no matter how much we try to deny it by not thinking about it or by planning/aiming for great things in the future.

LAZY talks

Feel so tired today, been out since 11am. Been very lazy since Friday night. Blame the weather!! ha ha ha... Been cold... and cloudy... and windy... and rainy everyday. And I'm craving for food and something sweet everyday, besides coffee of course. Yea, yea, I'm starting to put on some weight. Thanks to all the assignments...and there are still 3 more to go!!! Congratulations!!!

Somehow I didn't realize that tomorrow is already Monday. When I was walking with Cindy at the Melbourne Central this afternoon, I was thinking that tomorrow was Sunday which meant that I'd still have a day to start working, seriously, on my Strategic Management assignment. Too bad, I was wrong!!

Hey... 7 is playing the X-Men. What's wrong with these TV channels lately? They've been playing good movies on weekends. Well, not really good actually. It's just that they were the ones I watched  with my bro in Jakarta.  Yea, I miss those days... when me and my bro and sis went to the movie together. And it was almost everytime after I'd finished a job interview. We watched good movies, we watched crap movies too...but it's okay as I had not much to do on anyway.

Oya, remember what I said last week? I got another chance to chat with my k yesterday. It was very short. But as I didn't expect it at all, it once more took me by surprise. May be it's true what people say...that things come when you least expect them. His cousin was getting married yesterday. Must be fun...when all families and friends are gathering.

I read the horoscope on Friendster today. Do you know that sometimes what's there really gets you connected? Today it says:

The Bottom Line

Let things take their course. There's nothing you can do to push them a certain way.

In Detail

Sometimes, no matter how hard to push or wish, things are not going to go the way you want. Although you won't have your hopes dashed, a bracing dose of reality will remind you that there are many things beyond your control. Most importantly, do not take this as a sign that you are losing power. Rather, take it as a fact that life would be pretty boring if you always got what you wanted. Seek out the company of people who understand this.

Am sleepy now. Still need to write something for my assignment, though... When I got my first Strategic Management assignment back last Thursday, I was so...overwhelmed (thanks to my sis and my friend!!) that I promised myself to put more efforts on the second assignment. May be what I got was nothing to some people. But to me, it was amazing, it was superb, it was beyond what I had thought of. Cindy said that they gave easy marks. Yea, I thought so too... Yet still, I was honestly thinking that 74 was the max I could get. Now how come I'm so lazy of doing it?

A Reminder

Just in case later I change my mind, please remind me that I am feeling a bit (not really much, I suppose) better today. Yea, I feel that I can do something important, or at least, needed. I dunno where I have left my confidence, I haven't seen any lately. And it affects the whole thing, whether or not I realize it nor have any control of it. Somehow I think that I am older now that I've lost most of my energy. I know...I am not that old... but I dunno why I can't stand a school day without a cup of coffee these days. I must have left my ambitions too somewhere on my way here. Or...I may have compromised myself too generously. Or... I have probably overdone the correction.

I am happy that I got a chance to chat with my k yesterday, have never done it before and had never thought he would remember or really meant what he said few days ago about this chatting-over-the-weekend thing. Yea, I know...that could be the first and the last one. And he's still him. Including being silly in front of his cousin's computer... =) But sometimes you need some nice little things to make a difference in your days, rite?

I am happy that I have done some parts of our group assignment.

I am happy that we had so much fun cooking for the church's cafe this evening. Yea, a bit of cooking effort and much of the talks. Plus hands with a fishy smell. And a working experience from Antoinnette's cafe. He he...yea rite...

And I am happy now as I am really enjoying the classical+jazzy CD that I bought yesterday!!